Questions That Will Free Your Mind (Part 5)

When we can ask these questions to our self, at the right moment, it gives us clarity of direction, how eye opening our lives could be. And set us off in a direction that has deep meaning to us individually.

41.If you knew that everyone you know was going to die tomorrow, who would you visit today?
        My Mother, Aunt & Grandma, the strong women in my family, I can't write & answer this question without almost getting watery eyed. I don't know what I would do without them in my life but if it was the very last day, it would have to be with them.

42.Would you be willing to reduce your life expectancy by 10 years to become extremely attractive or famous?
        The vain part of myself would say yes in a heart beat but honestly I could care less then impress.

43.What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
        Being a alive is simple; you wake up to a worthless day, go to a worthless job on time, come home to your worthless husband/wife, have un-meaningful sex, thus after that disappointment try and find a way to not let your mind over think its self when your laying there until the next worthless morning. Truly living is waking up that day having no fucking clue as to what will happen, feeling creative & passionate. Going to a job that doesn't even feel like a job because you love it, coming home to the most beautiful husband/wife you want to be with forever without regret, feeling so connected with that person that every time feels like its the first time & just before bed you wonder what the next day will be like, sure it could be hard but that's just the adventure we call living.

44.When is it time to stop calculating risk and rewards, and just go ahead and do what you know is right?
        Now, tomorrow is a magic thing we come up with, tomorrow is always tomorrow, never coming. My life is much to short now to start over thinking it.

45.If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
        Sadly we all don't learn from our mistakes, I know some people that it has taken death, crime, sadness to get it & yet they still have years to learn. We are programed to think that we are perfect or at least meant to be.

46.What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
        Its what I do now, I spent so many wasted years worrying about my life, who was in it, who wasn't, who would judge me & when. I don't care anymore, at the end of the day if im called a freak, fag, loser, evil it their problem not mine. Its not my mind that has to worry anymore, I still have years to go in order to fully love myself but i'm the right path.

47.When was the last time you noticed the sound of your own breathing?
        Just the other night, I have had too much on my mind and need to detox & get some clearing. I was in the bath under water, in the back ground was nothing but my lungs and heart beat, I think we forget our self's sometimes.

48.What do you love?  Have any of your recent actions openly expressed this love?
       Man.. I love life, each day I wake up & do something I love to do, whether that's helping people or simply applying black lipstick for the next crazy photograph, I do what I want nowadays. 

49.In 5 years from now, will you remember what you did yesterday?  What about the day before that?  Or the day before that?
        I hope to think ill remember in five years, but honestly who knows, I'm a dreamer; I mostly think of the future, what I can do in that next five years, no time for the past, it was left there for a reason.

50.Decisions are being made right now.  The question is:  Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
        I have learned its easier to just do it yourself, love yourself, help yourself, rely on oneself.